Trapped within

Every moment feels like a breaking point, with each breath and every challenge adding to the weight that consumes me. I’ve never managed to rise above these struggles; I've left this world unseen, unable even to reach out for support. My friends feel distant, and my heart is frozen, dwindling like an hourglass. Though I have so much to live for and so much to accomplish, I grapple with conflicting feelings of love and loathing. How can I profess love when I resent you deeply? Every time I say it, regret follows. You are the most toxic person in my life. Is it too much to hold, with no one to share it with? Fear overwhelms me, and the cries for escape are endless. How do I liberate myself from this despair? I am desperate, crying out for help, yet finding no one to answer.