Working on Goodbye

Working on Goodbye



I stopped craving your warmth, some time ago.

Still, these tides roll in with the strength of many years.

Flooding me with unwanted memories -

Ghosts of affection, coming then drawing back to the void.



I stopped crying out your name, all the same.

Still, a small part of me searches for you, at every turn,

Trying to fill in every open vacancy.

But nothing can bring back that same sense of home.



I must do what is right and clear the webs.

Banish the dreams tucked and weaved at every corner,

Leaving behind every lovingly tendered seed,

Now left for someone else to enjoy in my stead.



I appreciate what we once had, the ways you cared,

Hopeful that you can say the same for me.

Regretting every failed attempt at forever

I’ll bless this farewell to your eternal happiness.



There is no easy way forward through shattered glass.

No written map for traveling between worlds,

No blueprint for when exiting one life into the next,

I must enter blindly into the unknown.



Hey, could you do me one last favor? Spare me a little bit of grace.

All I ask is for a little bit of patience,

While I pick myself off the ground and reach out for the next rung,

Taking it all one step at a time.



Please don’t get it twisted – I'm not trying to hold on

Or wanting to waste your sweet time

One day I will reach the other side

For now, I’m still working on goodbye.