I’m a liar

What is my life
And how do I love
I need to discover my love for myself

I love being free
And free is me
I’m addicted to wanting
And needing
And lacking

I love to want more
And deceive my self
I lie and lie and lie and lie

Who am I
I’m a liar
I’m a liar
And only to me

I say the truth to be brutal
To trick my self that I’m honest
But I lie and lie and lie to myself

What would it take
For me to be me
I’d have to be honest
And sad
And mad
And glad

The relief
The glee
I’m addicted

To the feeling
For a second

And then I give up
I lie I lie I lie

What will it take
To be honest
To be me
To be happy

Because the lie is livable the lie is easy the lie is mine