Open Letter to the TRUST

Shall we compare our former marriage to that of a storm on the sea?
We were always at odds with each other to the point of arguments occurring.
Our bluster went to and froe causing all to avoid the eye of the storm.
We could not see the results until all is calm once again.
Then we often ask each other “What started this argument?”
But our memories often faded over a short period of time.
Compromise through simply giving up the relationship was the answer.
For my part, I had love in my heart at the time.
But it dissolved upon learning you could not reciprocate.
The bottom line was that we were not together anymore.
Our three month commitment was tossed aside for the love of another.

Many years passed and we have had nothing to do with the other.
I ran away with event productions and you did your own thing.
There exists no ill will. You were true to yourself and did us both a favor.
What hurt was that you wanted nothing to do with me raising up our child.
This took many years for me to come to grips with and to understand.
But time heals all wounds is a true statement, provided that you do not run out of it.
I honored your request not to have anything to do with you.
Our son decided not to have relations with me until he was of age.
But my issues with my health have driven a wedge between us.
For I can not be leaned upon for financial support.
We keep in contact but not often are we in the others company.

Nowadays, I focus my efforts on my creativity, to heal inside through sharing.
My novel was published for this reason. But to get it recognized is difficult.
Especially since my money situation is worse not better. Everything evolves around it.
My pain in my soul still exists for I am not able truly to be myself.
At every turn, I have run into walls. All about money and its lack in my life.
I can’t produce my writing into songs without the funny bits of colored paper.
Perhaps they will live beyond my life and existence. This is why I published.
At least someone will get to know me, and my love for humanity.
I doubt that I will every receive a just due for what I have endured.
But I suffer in silence daily due to this gifts I have given away, trying to unite our planet.
But sadly, both sides are lining up their businesses BRIC vs WEST. They have not learned.

For many years, I gave my life in service to humanity, always siding on the right.
But my focus was cast aside simply out of great fear. God doesn’t fear thankfully.
So My tenure was abruptly severed at the source they feared that God wasn’t in charge.
God sorts us out by our actions and deeds, regardless of our pleadings.
Masonry & the Shrine both do not use my service for the same reason. Fear.
I am still a member, but remote service is not no longer allowed.
God demands of me that I focus my talents upon my art, and frame myself.
See brethren, I was putting into practice Love, forgiveness, and acceptance.
From the top down, I was the focus, but I did not and am not full of myself.
I remain humble, forthright and true. I have righted the careers of many, fueled many dreams.
From my beginnings in 2007 through until 2017 when I was cast aside for a lesser focus.