Echos in My Heart

Longing for a distant lover, struggling with the silence and absence.

Where are you, my heart?

Between the sky and my sky, I couldn't find you.

I looked for you even in my poems.

In every word.

You are lost in my mind.

I think again that you won't be long.

Because there is no one else on the planet whom I want to love.

Where are you, my heart?

Come back for me.

I don't want to think that you're running away from me.

Otherwise, who will write you poems and letters?

And you will tell them your fears and mistakes.

Who now? If it's not me

Sometimes I go and cry in the mirror and feel stupid and illogical

A kiss to the soul, a kiss from the soul, even to my soul, the kiss that could have been

When will you return?

When will you talk to me?

When will you come back to me?

I don't believe and I don't want to believe that you've abandoned me

I believe in knowing you

I believe in the love you declared for me

I believe in you

But I don't know if that's my biggest mistake

About trust

I trust you in every way I know

And I'm so sure that if I knew it was all a lie, I wouldn't know how to deal with it.

I looked for you but I didn't find you.

I know you're real.

I know there's life in you.

But I don't know where you are.

And I can only long for you once more.

Why do you treat me like this?

As if it were nothing

It may be my dramatic side

But it's been many days since you've been gone

And I don't know how to deal with it

I can only offer you my support and not distract you. I can offer you my understanding.

But all that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt

That I don't suffer from not hearing from you

That I feel invisible to you

And that kills me inside

Maybe I'm being dramatic

Maybe it's my overthinking side

Taking over

But it's the reality of what I feel

I still love you

And I wait for you

But even so

I'm hurting in my soul