In Whisper's of Love

Personal poem. Explores pain of loving someone. Feelings of longing desperation heartbreak

Tears fall from my eyes

These don't surprise me

Dark moonless nights like this

In absolute solitude

I realize one thing

No one owns anyone

I thought I owned your love

But maybe I never had it

With all these days that have passed

With your abandonment

I realize that maybe your love was never true

I never thought I'd cry for a love

I never thought I'd cry for a man

I never thought I'd humiliate myself so much

But I did

You achieved that in me

I only fell for your words

Words that were carried away by the wind

So much was said to me

I never wanted to listen

Because I had the thought that trust and honesty were everything

And I trusted you so much

I look at myself and cry in the mirror. I feel stupid and illogical.

I don't know why you did that to me.

If you didn't love me, why did you tell me you did?

For what purpose did you make me fall in love?

For the purpose of teasing?

I've never felt something so strong for someone.

And you just took it as a game.

I'm tired.

Even so, I love you.

I know that if you came back, I'd fall for you again.

But also know that you'd leave again.

Without explanation.

I don't know why.

What's the reason?

Do you like doing this?

Hurt people?

Or unfortunately, I happened to see that side of you?

Only you know.

Maybe I was just a stranger to you.

And never a sentimental person with fragile feelings.

I don't know.

Or maybe you're running away from me.

Was I too much for you?

I don't believe it

But I don't know how you feel or how you see things

Even so, I keep waiting for you with an open mind and heart

I don't know if it's stupid

It might be more torture

But what can I do if I love you so much

I love you so much that I can't see my life without you

And every day tears run through my eyes

Despair runs

Unwanted thoughts run

But what do I do if my heart doesn't want to listen

If my logic doesn't matter to it

If all they want is you

I repeat, I never thought I'd cry for love and a man, but you made it happen

The beautiful feelings I felt are dying

The worst thing is that I already feel the idea that you'll never come back and that I was just a toy. I hope they're just desperate thoughts and not a fact.