Self-Sacrifice

Apologies for the heavy theme. I was inspired by something and this is what came out.

Despite what you say and despite what you do,
I cannot fight back, I’m addicted to you.
I’ve tried to back off, to cut down on my need,
But being around you is worth how I bleed.
Your closeness is heaven, your absence is hell,
I can see how I was and I know I’m not well.
You’re a vice I can’t quit, though I know that I should,
I say that I can, but I’m not sure I could.
I can feel myself fading with all that I give
And I’ll need something back if I’m going to live
Perhaps you don’t know this, perhaps you don’t care
How I’ve given much more than I’ve got to spare
But still I can’t blame you, still I hold tight
Convincing myself that it will all be alright
It isn’t that bad, it’s like falling asleep
The hole’s getting bigger and it’s gotten so deep
I’ll look up at you from my place on the floor
You’ll look down at me, and ask me for more
I’ll give till it hurts, and I’ll treasure the scar
For I know what you need, and I know what you are
You’re a beautiful poison, the best kind of high
You’ll stand there and smile and watch as I die.

Written By: Tristan M. Boothe
1/24/2018 (10:55pm)