The Right Thing

Is it the right thing to do?

It's the right thing to do...to want to make it work.
That's what you tell yourself.
I understand why. You're a good man.
All these years you've tried to love her, only for her to say, I want that too, but you don't hear me or you did...whatever she says you did to make her pull away.

It's all your fault, right?
So you take what crumbs she gives you, hoping you can finally make her happy enough to give you the love you crave -- to atone for your insufficiency.

No accountability.
No ownership.
No acknolwedgement that she has emotionally abandoned you and forced you to diminish everything about yourself to try to earn back her affection.

She wants the benefits of you without the relationship.
She does just enough to keep you hanging on.
She tells you what you want to hear to avoid the conflict and responsibility.
But there's never real effort or initiation.
She reacts to you because she knows this is how she makes you stay.
She feeds your guilt.

You did nothing wrong.
She pushed you away.
She never met you where you are.
She never said what she needed.
You didn't NOT hear her.
You have done everything.

This isn't anything you don't already know.
You must decide if this is how you want to live the rest of your days.
Or if you finally want to claim the love you want.
She's waiting for you.