One person sees how badly he has treated a true friend and resolves to change. |
I'm Sorry If only you knew what I can't admit to myself How much I think of you, my emotions on the shelf And how much I care, while still denying you a place As a fellow member of the human race. If only you knew while I stand denying all How far I might have gone had I the guts to bawl. But my feelings for you I stored in a dark bin And never let them out and never let you in. Friendship denied is a horrid state And friendship spurned closes the gate To the many paths which save us from the breach A life of joy and purpose far out of reach. How I wish, dear friend, I had been good to you And struggled through to being real and true Not hidden myself behind pretend walls of fear Built to shame one I could love so dear. Yes, I claimed to fear you and tried to make it so Tried to say your reaching to me was a wicked blow Slandered and mocked you when you tried to be real Squashed your spirit under my heel. But now let be the good for you I feel And build on that so my wrongs I might repeal. "I'm sorry" doesn't even begin to say The remorse and regret I feel today. But maybe, just maybe, today I can begin To turn back the tide of my great sin. By turning in the power called by me to rule So I could have the upper hand and not be thought a fool! So I could be the one in charge and have the final say And make you do as I wished and never get away. So I could call the shots and tell you what to do And think highly of myself and lowly of you. Maybe this can be the day I mean with all my heart To think of what is good for you and give you a new start. Maybe now I can at last enjoy being me And be glad to see you as yourself strong and free. |