Lacrimas

So many things
Can sway me.
I can rise above my base,
Reach out to that everlasting light
But that whirlwind of anxiety
Pulls me down, threatening
To wrench my heart out
If I do not obey.


I cannot control myself.
I don't know if I should rise or stay,
My mind is pulling me in different ways.
My petals bring up melted recruits to defend.
Yet I still know the bleeding is there.
And the teardrops are suspended as stars
Shining though murky.

I am afraid and do not know why.