When forgoten memories of my childhood came back to me throughout the night. |
The roots of "you" are born in childhood; but what to do when darkness replaced the memories of what you were and the reasons of why you became. You go through life living as expected, surviving or learning to understand; because of the darkness you are different than the ways and thoughts of those I watch. Flashes of thoughts and pictures invaded your dreams, sleepless nights of terror of what has been, live your life as you are, not because of what was but because of what you learned during the dawn. Speak to the voices in the dark, calling your dreams without a thought, I would have rather never known that I lost my childhood so long ago. Why remember these nights, now that happiness was given to me, is it the curse that leads me to question the worth of my identity? Tired of judgments and accusations, generalizing women by their experience, can you not understand that we are not all alike? That experience changes within the heart; even among those you see as puppets, following the lead of what you have set to be the way they are because of a bad seed. Happiness has filled my soul, a loving man that understands my whole, so different than all those around that even he is looked in frown. My laughs and jokes come from within, my giggles are the joy coming forth; having fun regardless of who you are, that is the way that I am among strangers and friends, it is all the same enjoying the moment, making all of you grin. To be judged and questioned because of this, makes me wonder what it is that causes all to doubt my true feelings, that causes all to doubt the way I am. I stay the same, I will not change. My fear is not the thoughts you gave, my only fear is losing the one that filled my life with so much love. As long as he is still the same, believes in me and knows I gave to him the love I have within I will be true to him until my death. Originally written on September 12th, 2002. http://www.livejournal.com/users/priscamor/28816.html |