This is me

I cut up my arms
Try to hide my fears
I cut my own wrists
Just to stop these tears
This is me, this is me
I can never explain
This is me, this is me
You don't know my pain

You hold me close
I push you away
You tell me with love
Everything will be ok
I want to believe
But in the past
I've been deceived

I slit my own throat
In so many dreams
I destroy myself
So I don't feel a thing
This is me, this is me
Sorry to disappoint you
This is me, this is me
This is what I do

You hold me close
I push you away
You tell me with love
Everything will be ok
I want to believe
But in the past
I've been deceived

I throw away my life
Like so many times before
I push everyone away from me
But can't do this alone anymore
This is me, this is me
Inside, I know, I'm trying to heal
This is me, this is me
Don't tell me how I should feel

You hold me close
I push you away
You tell me with love
Everything will be ok
I want to believe
But in the past
I've been deceived