Only Me

As time elaps
And I look around
I try not to blame him
But deep inside I do
It's hard not to let
The words I hate you come through
He abused me with his words
He hurts me with his looks
I feel unwanted
I feel no good
But he's the one who's no good
Leaving me all the time
I've faced every storm alone
No one to back me up from behind
He hardly kisses my scars
Never wipes my tears away
Why doesn't he want me any more
What is something I said or did
I don't know how much longer I can last
My pulse is getting weak
Maybe I'll just let go
And some day soon he'll come back to me
Am I living an illusion
Covering up his lies
Why didn't he show these signs from the beginning
Someone must tell me why
I no longer hear the monitor in my ear
And the line on the screen is blank
I guess I have been living an illusion
I never claimed to be a saint
I'm standing over myself now
Looking at the person I let one man break
Maybe in the after life...I'll choose another fate...