Life or Death

I look down the road of life
And see my world ahead
I see myself slipping away
Without a single tear shed

I am digging this hole deeper
And I realize its not a game
But this is not so easy,you see.
My life is already filled with shame

I see myself in the future
Living on the streets
With poor and homeless people
And with runaway freaks

Is it because I left?
Or is it because of the drugs?
You wouldnt know how much I miss
My friends and familys hugs

The day when it all happened
Is still fresh in my thoughts
You would never guess
Just how I got caught

It was my choice to do the things
Even though I knew better
I really meant to do that
It wasnt my fault I hit her

She should not have mouthed off to me
When she knew that i was high
And I bet she regretted her statement
When I punched her and said bye

I came home drunk.
High and stoned
After a night of partying
And people telling me dont

After the fight we got into
I packed my stuff and left home
And when she came to conscious
She realized I was gone

I sit her and think
Of what i just saw
And try to come up with a way
To make it not happen at all

Should i stop with the drugs?
No,thats way to hard
I could try to control my anger
But that would tear myself to shards

And then it hits me
Like a flash
This is my destiny
This is my life