Pain

Hot, intense,
stronger than a morning coffee
drunk quickly between red
and green light,

as bitter, as tears swallowed at midnight
after betrayal by a friend.

Pain,

Pain when he said "Take care"
instead of "I care".

---
pain is always with me
my shadow
stocker
wolf

since that loneliness in the classroom
since the tears upon the stars
since thin pale lips and clenched fists
since first scream
since first breath

it was always there

i want to see
without the black veil
without the fog

i want to dream
to win
to belong
to receive
to feel loved
to be free

to be free from pain