:: Tight to the Heart ::

Everytime I push you away it pulls at my chest because you and I are still bound at the heart so I push a little harder and your screams are over powered by that thick wet tearing sound of everything I believe in falling out crashing down on top of me

And I smile at you through clenched teeth
I bite my tounge not trying to say anything
And I stare at you through blinded eyes
Crying blood not tears through everything

It's the heaviest kind of love like lead holding you back holding you down as I'm sinking because I keep falling in to the heaviest kind of love like lead holding you back weighing you down as I'm sinking and I can't stop falling in

And I smile at you through clenched teeth
I bite my tounge not trying to say anything
And I stare at you through blinded eyes
Crying blood not tears through everything

You could fill an ocean with all the tears I've made you cry and I would swim across that sea of tears just to cut my throat before your eyes so you can see that I don't want to look at everything I've done to you and everything you mean to me

And I smile at you through clenched teeth
I bite my tounge not trying to say anything
And I stare at you through blinded eyes
Crying blood not tears through everything

And this little ring of depression that I wear around my neck is choking me and I can't breathe so I'll hold my breath because I'm so selfish and insecure that when one person stands between us I won't see you anymore

I'm doing alright without you sitting here by myself staring off into nothing nothing here nothing real but I'm over it now because you know you're under my skin but I can handle that just like you handled this before

And I smile at you through clenched teeth
I bite my tounge not trying to say anything
And I stare at you through blinded eyes
Crying blood not tears through everything

Every day from here on in from now til then and then the end I won't again speak those words I've spoken when you knew what you wanted and I knew what I had but we've lost everything and you just want to be friends

And I smile at you through clenched teeth
I bite my tounge not trying to say anything
And I stare at you through blinded eyes
Crying blood not tears through everything