please forgive me

please forgive me

i try
honest
i’ve tried so hard I thought my heart would break
into little pieces
each one with a different memory
a different letter of your name
my name
engraved in stone

if i could stop i would
honest
you don’t believe me
but i‘m doing the best i can

a line of a song
a glance across a room
a naughty thought once shared
they don’t go away
they stay and torment me
telling me to move on and remember

remember

i’m trying as hard as i can
it’s not as easy as it looks
not for me
i don’t think i’ve ever done it before
never had the need
not like this

please forgive me
if my efforts aren’t enough
if my trying isn’t getting anywhere
i’m doing the best i can
honest