Prediction of the Future

Frustration
Sadness
Angry at myself for being sad
For crying day after long day
It wouldn’t even phase you
To know that I’m sad
You wouldn’t even care
Sadness continues as a result of this realization
If you cared about anything it would be better
I wouldn’t be this ridiculously upset
You don’t have to care about me
Just care about Something
I am angry
Angry that I cant be angry at you
I get so mad just thinking about you
Then I see you
All that anger just disappears
It’s as if it was never there
Every time I think of you
Anger doesn’t come to mind
All those hateful words I’ve thought
The words I should use to describe you
They don’t come to mind
There’s a picture
Forever branded into my brain
The ultimate portrayal of who you Used to be
How can I be mad at Old you?
How can I be mad at one of my Best Friends?
How can one of my best friends no longer exist?
Just a shadow of the past
Taunting me always
You cant be mad at someone who has no feelings
It’s pointless
Nothing will ever be resolved
Speaking to someone who’s mind is broken
Why?
You’ll never understand
Sure you’ll nod just to get me to shut up
To stop my ranting
I call it such because that is what it surely will be
I’ll reach my breaking point
Just snap one day
I fear for you when that day comes
I fear for All when that day comes
I’ll just yell endlessly at everyone
Tell them exactly what I’ve thought of them everyday since we’ve met
It wont be pretty
It wont end well at all
Even the best scenario is a massacre
Resulting in my non-stop crying
Until I just faint from the exhaustion of it all
Crying hysterically by myself in a corner
After severing every friendship I’ve ever cared about
I hope I don’t do that
I really do
Sitting there in my corner as person after person tries to get me to stop
Angering me more
There is one though
The only person who I will draw support from
Hopefully she will be there
No, she Will be there
She will be the one yelling at everyone to leave me alone
Everyone yelling at her as I scream at the room in general
Thank goodness for Andrea