I wait. I wait tables. I wait on the future. I wait until I can let go of the past. For better things. For the day I just know. Until I sober up more to drive. To find an answer. I try. I try to stay afloat. To keep peace and avoid conflict. To stay genuine and positive. Harder on my own terms. Less frequently then I should. I know. Nothing relevant, and that nothing is relevant. Myself and how to read peoples minds. The rules of sarcasm. A little about a lot. That I do bad things. How to treat a lady. Not to wear plaids and stripes. Where I didn't put my keys.