Echoes of Unspoken Pain

I am a green-eyed monster,
it’s engraved in my heart.
I cannot control it,
even if I want to erase the spark.

My heart drops as I walk down halls
where no one knows my name.
All I can do is walk with a smile on my face.
Those people look at others
and run to them with warm embrace.

I am a green-eyed monster;
I want that for myself.
When will I find my someone
who won’t turn to someone else?

That creature that’s within me
tells me to shout it out,
but I can’t seem to do that,
especially since it’s only for myself.

That creature acts as a saint
but knows my deepest pain.
When I finally shout it out loud,
I’m left with tears and heart in vain.