The Absence of Wavelength

speak-less x)

i don't want to speak to you
you intimate to me
disappointment
i have been connected, attuned
99 percent of the time
the one time i'm offline
user error? repairable?

I had though so

I had worked on the glitches, bugs
eating up my hard drive
i'm on the curb
on her yard

it's my home, too

i don't need to speak
because you know wrong, unwillilng
to admit fault
because i might start
to think i'm right, knew something

my gas, you light

inert? no explosion heard?
that was implosion,

inside my dear
i don't go off, because
i still love...can't love
restricted by your judgment

i don't want to act
idle in the comfort of a sagging recliner
no space to set back, and
don't want to appear lazy
nothing to do but rust and dream

how sweet silence
collapse the empty cave inside

i don't desire nothingness
it's what i do best
since i can't go forward,
sideways, back
god forbid up, but down
lots of space underground

since i want to bury myself
whenever you're around
you trained all
indifference, silence, mirror my face
so i have to run to a mirror

what do they see?
I only wanted to know what was missing
I only wanted to be good enough
to be included
unaccepting of a separatist nature
of every walk in each world

since i'm tired of writing this...


8.14.23
she resides in the bedroom down the hall
my laptop hits the kitchen table today
i dare you! make me remove it in this hovel
we call(ed) home

i'll be with my stuff in the grass
if you need me
extra layers needed with each new winter

i do and don't know what i'm saying...perspective coming...glad the rest of you know your minds so well...instruct me, correct me, drop me on your corners, offerings for the junk men.