Journey with me as I seek and find God in all the trials and joys of my life. ### For now, we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 1 Corinthians 13:12
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The Beginning September 6, 2024 at 5:19pm The story of my walk with the Lord began with Him saving my earthly life seconds after it had begun. The God I know and love today, wasn’t going to let His will for my life get interrupted.
I was very ill when I was born and spent weeks in and out of the hospital before I finally came home to be permanently reunited with my older brother Ken and my twin sister, Cynthia. While I don’t remember ever going to church as a young child, I’m sure I did, as we were raised Cathol... [Read more] Lost November 21, 2023 at 10:25pm I spent most of my life never feeling like I belonged anywhere. My mother once told me she felt we weren't close because I was in the hospital for so long after I was born. She said we must have missed the “bonding” period of our relationship as she was home with my brother and sister and wasn't able to see me often.
As a result, I looked for attention and approval wherever I could find it. I was willing to do anything and go anywhere to find a place where I belonged; where I w... [Read more] The Decision February 22, 2024 at 3:14pm
I remember the exact date I opened the Bible for the first time. It was February 26, 1993. That was the date of the first World Trade Center bombing and there was a daycare center in the building. I was so upset I took the Bible I owned but never read and opened it. I read for hours through tears and heartache. I noticed as I was reading that after a while, I started to feel peaceful, which was odd considering what was going on. From that day forward, I knew where to go when I was in ... [Read more] The Search for a Church Home January 7, 2024 at 12:55pm
My search for God started where most people look: church. When I married my second husband, we were married in the Catholic Church my husband attended and we went to church every Sunday. Prior to my marriage, I hadn’t attended church in about 15 years. We had a son and raised him in this church also. But I was growing increasingly uncomfortable there. One Sunday, the priest gave a sermon on the nature of vices. He mentioned drinking, sex, smoking, and gambling. At the end of the ... [Read more] In The Wilderness April 19, 2024 at 8:15pm At the beginning of my walk with the Lord, I wasn’t prepared for the ups and downs of my life and my faith. I thought nothing could change the way I felt and that the closeness I felt with the Lord would carry me through any storm that came my way.
Some of the storms were designed by God for His purpose so that I could look to Him for shelter from the storm. He loved me enough to give me an opportunity to trust Him when I forgot how to. Others were the result of my disobedience. Still... [Read more] Learning to Pray April 3, 2024 at 5:54pm As a young child being raised in a Catholic home, my prayers consisted of memorized prayers from school or church and saying the rosary and novenas. Years later as a young adult my only experience with prayer was limited to a repetitive “wish list”. The words just came out as a sort of ritual before bedtime...with no emotion, thought, or idea that God had a will for my life that may or may not have included anything on my “wish list”. I see now that I wasn’t really praying.
... [Read more] Writing My Way to God March 30, 2024 at 9:09pm Because of a life-long struggle with hearing issues, I escaped into the world of writing. It was safe there and continues to be. I am also very shy about speaking in front of other people because my hearing issues cause a lisp when speaking. After years of childhood bullying, I started writing about the Lord after someone from a Bible study suggested I might be more comfortable writing a prayer rather than speaking it.
And once I did, the floodgates opened! When I look back to the first es... [Read more] Spiritual Influences in My Life May 22, 2024 at 9:21pm Many people helped me in my spiritual journey...these are just a few:
Isabel B.
Isabel was my first sponsor in AA. She was instrumental in helping me see that God is a loving, forgiving God. She was gentle and patient as I learned not to be ashamed of my past and helped me to live one day at a time. She was at my side throughout the most crucial first 90 days of my sobriety and moved me forward, helping me to understand the role of the Lord in my life.
Esther Velez
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