I will share the many thoughts that invade my introspective soul. |
This became the meditation for the day. My brother wants to visit and my wife is just as adamant that he will not visit, siting the scripture that talks about marriage a of s a mandate to forsake in behalf of the beloved. I experience the bitter taste of sour grapes. I would like to see my brother. He says he will pay for his trip. It just seems strange to have a family member visit without my wife offering some kind of welcome. She has heard stories about some of his mishaps and wants no one like him in the house. She even has let me know she will go to Pennsylvania if I try in any way to rescind her authority. It seems strange. Only yesterday(it seems) I left Massachusetts in 1985. It was a bitter pill to swallow and became more bitter as I went though divorce and the deaths of mom and dad. I think I know kind of what the forsaking means and yet I am learning I have not got a clue. I will go to bed and hopefully wake up with a modicum of peace. Until then I ponder the good reasons I came out here and the God who calls me to love those who might not know God's love anyway. And at the moment I need that love too. |