Soul Journeys Blog Looking forward

Sadly blue 🔵 today.

I'm not having a good day today. I'm tired of struggling with depression. Trying to just pretend everything is fine. I've done the medication thing and everything else. I don't want to be a zombie with no feelings or have no creativity left in me.
I want to believe that my writing is worthwhile. People here have been so supportive. Today I took everything off my desk and put it in the closet. I'm frustrated with my sister, who is supportive and yet can't get why I am sensitive. Why I get upset over things she said.
I was so hopeful for this year and it's like a radio signal that fades in and out. The joy part, even though I know we can't be happy all the time.
We all have our worries about money and everything going on in the world. When I get really down it takes so much, just to get back to ok again. I miss going to Adult Ballet 🩰 class. There aren't any or places I can go by myself. No bus , I don't drive. I'm thankful we have a place to live we can afford. It's hard to be in a rural area after being able to get around all my life.
I was hoping this post would be more upbeat but it's what's true.
Tomorrow is Monday and don't know if I will have a weekly goal or not. Will I ever be able to catch up on all the writing projects lost in space? Thanks for your time