Meth: a Ticking Timebomb Gone Viral

Down...But Not Out

It gets harder every time. Failing time and again depletes my morale. I am struggling to come up with words...staring blankly at the screen, not knowing what to say next. It's frightening, to say the least. The hope is I will recover my thoughts and get back to normal, but right now, I'm not sure if that will be the case.

Darkness has replaced light. The clear vision I had before is now blurred. The confidence I had built up over the last three months is gone, and in its place, only questions remain. I am lost.

Today, I took my first steps. I had run out of supplies and although I didn't want to go out in public, it was either that or scrape up whatever I could from what remained. I got in and out of the store as quickly as I could...eyes down. And this afternoon, I got out on my bike for a short ride. It was all I could manage to do.

Tomorrow will be better. I have food in the house and hopefully, things will look a little less bleak than they do today.