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I am starting a new chapter in my life..... |
Second thoughts..... and thirds.....and fourths....... I don't know if I can do this. I tried going to work before but I ended up quitting after 2 1/2 weeks. I hate taking the buses really early or really late in the day. Winter will be here soon, and I don't think we can count on another mild one like last year. In fact, with last year having been so mild we're probably in for a harsh one this year. That's why I quit last time. Having to catch buses and then still having to walk through the snow for two or three blocks. I really don't want to let Audrey down. I don't want to let myself down. Some may say I'm setting myself up for failure by telling myself now that I'm not going to be able to do it. Will I really be able to keep my eye on the prize this time? I do need the money. I do need to feel better about myself. but is it going to make me feel better about myself if I can't do it? _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________- I'm heading into a depressive episode already with my writing. I am so horribly blocked. I don't even know if I am going to be able to finish October Novel Prep Month, let alone be able to do NaNoWriMo. What am I going to do? I've been reading inspirational sayings, meditating to reduce my stress, working with my Runes..... nothing seems to be helping. I'm dragging myself from day to day and I keep cancelling appointments and classes. I feel just okay when I get up in the mornings and by 1 pm I'm dragging and wanting to go back to bed. All I want to do is lay around...... My life just really sucks dirtwater right now...... |