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Day 11 ( even if I didn't feel like or knew what to say)

Hi again

This is my weekly goals
To live to Friday


It's hard right now but I'm fighting to stay.

Too many distractions fill my day.
Time for myself to write is a struggle, some just want to burst my bubble 💬.

Keep posting every day in my blog. Didn't miss one day
Even if felt like it.

Keep taking random notes 🎶
On scrap paper 📜
Vignettes may be my only key to writing and perhaps my sanity!




I'm having a tough time again,
It's hard to deal with PTSD and have triggers flung at you.


To see people you thought you knew decide that an election results are more important than you and past history.


To wonder 🤔 if any of it was real.

The Barilla elbows pasta 🍝
Are now half the size as last time we bought them.


The raspberries were $1.99 ( that I wrote about yesterday)


I'm feeling lost in the sauce 🫙
of life.
Too many years of living with strife.
🎶
Like a ship ⚓ without an anchor
To keep me at the shore.
I seriously wonder how much more I can endure.
Tomorrow I'm going to do something different.

I'm going to recopy a couple of things I wrote a few days ago.

It takes a lot more effort to do things like that.

In part explained it in reply to yesterday's comment.

It's not like I'm giving up.
Even if I've been close to it.

I still most days
Thank God G-d for returning my soul to me and giving me another day of life.
And for the strength to push with my broken body.
That there's a purpose for me, even if most days, I can't see it.

I wonder 🤔
I wonder if I'm just delusional
For thinking I should write ✍️

About my crazy dysfunctional family and the comedy and drama in my life.

The days I played and sang on the stage despite all the grief and strife.

Always looking towards the future in search of love
Beyond life's push and shove.

Faith and beliefs have carried me
Enjoying nature 🍄‍🟫 and loving to draw 🌲 trees.

Stuck inside an apartment now,
Not many places to go.
Can't hang out in nature
God's waiting room is slow...
Peace ✌️