Meth: a Ticking Timebomb Gone Viral

Can a Prepper be a Christian?

I've sourced most of the things I will need in case of a disaster. Nada and I can survive a few months with what we have, but I wonder what preparations a person of faith would make. To leave their fate in the hands of God seems 'logical', but the will to survive is strong, and just because they may be willing to face Armageddon (or leave it up to God and hope for rapture) doesn't mean they want themselves, or their children, to die before they are due.

I have always sat on the fence about belief in a higher power, and it is a position that brings me little solace. What if those who believe in the second coming are right and it happens soon? Will I be condemned for having doubts? And now that the end may be nigh, playing the 'wait and see' game isn't as easy as I anticipated. I'm sure the scientific community (and those who follow their doctrine, who are just as sure in their opinions as the religious folk), look at us non-conformists and laugh quietly among themselves for being so naive to even consider the possibility of the existence of God.

I used to debate with my mother about the likelihood of there being a creator. To me, it was more fun banter than anything else, but if my arguments became too littered with logic, not long afterwards I would invariably kick my little toe on something hard, which always brought a wry smile to her face and a quick apology from me to both her and her protector. I have always been clumsy, but it sure gave me food for thought.

Lately, due to the negative stuff I have been seeing on YouTube and the signs that may or may not be an indication of the end of times, my thinking has gone like this. It makes no sense to side with the pragmatic and logical thinkers, after all, their promise of nothingness (even though that was the 'reality' before I was born) after I die, won't see me high-fiving those around me on my deathbed.

Yet, I cannot help but feel somewhat of a sellout/fraud to suddenly shift my fence-sitting ways and fall over to the side that offers the highest chance at something other than nothing. One could (if they weren't as scared as I am to say it out loud) say that this late repenting thing may not be good enough, especially to those who have dedicated their lives to their beliefs and perhaps lived a life of lesser sin than I. Of course, (if questioned) they (the believers) would deflect such matters, saying it isn't up to them, but to God. But, I cannot help but think there may be a few noses out of joint if, after arriving in heaven, it is filled with not just the staunch believers, but a bunch of recently reformed agnostics...people who at the last minute, and upon seeing the signs, decided to change their views on the off chance that the scientists and atheists may be wrong after all.

Two years ago, I wrote a short story "Heavens Above"  that I am now looking at and thinking, will my clever (or not so clever) little story, in which I have a 'mild' dig at Christians and their faith, be my downfall? Should I delete it and pray for forgiveness? Distancing myself from such a blasphemous attempt at satire? I think not...mainly because it was written for entertainment purposes only, and was not meant to offend any one particular group or their higher being. And with that, I may have just ruined any chance I had at eternal life in paradise.