It's a Mousey kind of Life

still in pieces

Still in pieces. Everything is overly sensitive so every touch hurts. my legs are spasming. Still having trouble walking. Waiting to go have this test to tell me exactly what is going on with me and what we can do about it. At least it won't be too long waiting for the results....

I don't know if I put it in here yet. The biopsy I had done came back positive for cancer. Some kind of cervical carcinoma.

I itch constantly and my nerves arre on edge. I don't know what to do. I hate D having control of my meds. I don't know what I'm taking any more or what it is suppose to help. I think the worse thing about all this is I don't know what are my physical symptoms or what is mental or a side effect from mental meds. Things are so confusing.

My head feels like it is swirling in a whirlpool. I'm spinning and drowning all at once.

I don't want to write because it it seems like I'm writing about the same things. All I want to do is sleep. I don't want to feel.


Something has to give somewhere.