Speak to myself

Frienship

How do you define friendship? I always ask about myself.
However, this question has made me crazy for two months. From the date started from the end of our committee, i am wondering when we will meet again. Is it true that an end in the committee mean to an end in us?
Or, like the other said to me a few months ago, the end of the committee will make us gather together. But i can see any real gathering up to now. did he treat me?
Seeing people gather togather, cheer for being together and leave each other for some reasons eventually, i 've a formula of friendship. Is there any alternation? Why do you guys dislike me? Did i do anything wrong?
i talked to myself again last night. Tears ran down from my face. i want to be strong. I remember Edma cheered me up and said "Be Strong" to me once.But, where is he now? I know where he is, indeed. However, does he think i am his friend now? Just like we are still in the committee? Just like we are partner in the drama?