Me, myself and the public

Well...

My friends weren't much help.

my crush is now a ghost to me. Let me
explain:
Basically, whenever i'm alone or when I'm
feeling blue I just imagine him there. I
nowhe's just a figment of my over-active
imagination, but he seems so real.
He's always hugging me or kissing or we're
making love. Being me, i always try to hide
from this, but you can't from a ghost-especially
in your dreams. before i finally admitted that i
did love Jack, I had nghtmares every night,
and it would always end in 'Why don't you love
me' and I would be pleading to him that i don't
love and that...I can't love him. I can't bear the
thought of being hurt so i tend to use sarcasm
to the extreme, but it isn't gona get me
anywhere.
Which is weird, because i know my problems
and i know the symptoms, and i know what I
have to do, at least what I'm supposed to do,
but it makes me more scared and withdrwan
nonetheless. Which ends up with me getting
more confused but aware of what's going on,
and cycle goes on and on. I'm not too sure if i
can stand it much longer.
See ya later...xxx