It matters becuase?...

I'm not giving this a title...

It's been one of those days...
I never could cry,
If only I'd die!
Let my soul fly,
But instead-why?!-
I watch life go by,
Heave a huge sigh.
I'm blind in one eye,
To not even try-
Wish I could try-
But the time is nigh,
When soon I say bye.
Don't you dare cry,
you know I won't die.
But I've been know to lie,
My own noose I'll tie,
Goddess knows, I'll try.
Cold, hot, wet, dry,
Even if I do die,
The seasons will go by,
Whether you're gal or guy,
May it be a piece of pie,
Just for now, Let this,
Sleeping,
Dog,
Lie...

OK, OK, I admit. I'm in pain. My heart is in turmoil, my mind is a confused blur, my head hurts and I'm tired as hell.

Life took a big downturn today... For some reason, it felt like I was back at Memorial Mud Suckers, and almost everything was against me. It didn't help that I feel like crap, either.

I can't write well, I can't draw well, I can't act, I've never been able to sing or dance. Hell, I can't even READ straight!! I can't even listen to music without having SOMETHING bother me...

I took a stress test and it said to help, I should lose Conciousness...I think I'll go deal with that now...

By the way, that lovely little poem at the top, In case yer the school counsoler trying to make sure I don't kill anything, THAT ISN"T A f***ING SUICIDE LETTER!!!

I'll be passed out on the ground if you need me,
CerAnaka