From June 21 Onward

In Awe of Christ

August 9, 2002

         Yeah, this is the same night. Maybe an hour or
so later. All the problems in the previous entry are still
there, they haven't changed. But I have something
great to help me. I don't have to worry about them.
         For the first time in too long, I went back to
God's Word, reading it sincerely. I've never been so
desperate for His help in my life, I don't think. After
reading the first couple of verses in Jeremiah chapter 2
(which was there when I flipped the Bible open), then a
few of the Psalms (also just flipped to), I realized again,
truely, that I don't have to worry about anything. Worry
is anti-faith. God knows it all, and if I just let Him lead
me, there's nothing to fear. He knows where I am,
where I'm going, and the same about the Corvette.
Everything is just how He wants it to be, and anything
that needs to be fixed will be, on His time, not mine.
         After that, I just broke down. This has never
happened to me before. It's a totally new experience. I
kneeled down to pray after reading, and I just burst into
tears. I just started thanking Jesus for taking my
burdens, for putting things into perspective, for being by
my side no matter how far I run from Him, for being my
God in whom I can have complete faith and beyond. I
am so joyous right now, it's hard to pin down the
sensation. I can feel the peace in my mind, I can feel
the tingles run up and down my body, and I'm having
trouble not shouting at the top of my lungs. I can feel it
in my throat, I just want to laugh. Joy is something I
haven't felt in a long time. What a wake up call. Thank
Jesus!!
         Of course, even though this is kind of a double-
entry, I have new recommended listening: My
Reason. I don't know who it's by, but it's one of my
favorite worship songs. Kudos til later!

~ Dris ~