A peek at the REAL Thumbster

Turning Uncaring?

I'm not quite sure what I'm doing here. I mean at this site...or on the net for that matter.

Suddenly last year writing became a burning passion for me. It's what kept drawing me back to this computer on a daily basis. I wasn't making any money doing it or really going anywhere with it...but that didn't stop my desire to write.

I just upgraded again but only because getting my own web site up and running proved to be a much bigger challenge than this cyber moron could cope with at this time. I don't like the idea of my items being tossed out with the cyber trash. So here I am. Not much of a reason to upgrade.

I think I could rekindle my desire to write again...but I'm not sure that's what I want.

I'm surprised I get anyone visiting my port at all considering how I've let it get so stale and run down. I don't like watching friends that were dear and close to me drift further and further apart.

I may enter a contest again here. I haven't done that in months.

Sheeeeeeesh! This is depressing. Funny but I don't see myself as being a depressing person. I like to laugh too much to be a good depresser. I picture myself more as an uplifter. Then again...maybe it's like listening to a recording of my own voice...it's never quite as I picture it sounding. Maybe I have a totally distorted view of myself compare to how others see me. Hmmmmmmmmmm Interesting. (I sound like Spock now)

I always liked Spock...(from the original Star Trek series...the unemotional Volcan with the pointy ears)...his take on things. I think being logical has it's place...just like being emotional and passionate does too. Time and place for everything.

So I watch with some kind of out of body experience thingy as I lose my Captain Kirk passion and become Vulcanized and detached...There's that word again..."detached" I mentioned it in my last entry. Funny how all of that entry was deleted except for the snippet about "detached" and "reattached"

Damn cyber Gremlins. Maybe I'll stick around just to spite them.




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