trapped in a soap opera

procrastination is my middle name

well, just spent about 30 min playing stupid online games instead of catching up on my work which i should be doing. actually im not sure what i should be doing since i didnt go to class all last week pretty much. i know i have the first half of my acct test tomorrow, and that ill have to make up my german test pretty soon, but other than that i have no idea what i should be doing right now. its really frustrating to me, even though i know its my own damn fault. i always do this--thats why ive dropped out so many times. about halfway through i just get bored with school and fuck off until i get too far behind, and then i get depressed and miss even more school and drop out. its a cycle that doesnt ever seem to end. I CANNOT LET THAT HAPPEN THIS TIME. i guess i really just need to distance myself from people cause i have no self control when it comes to getting stuff done instead of going out. the stupid thing is i am pretty much tired of all these stupid people i just go with them cause i "have nothing else to do". now we all know that i do have shit to do but in my mind i can do it later or whatever. i have to finish and i have to finish well dammit i cant mess up this time. if i mess it up this time then thats it i have no other chances. i have to so i guess its a jump to antisocial joy (cept maybe on the weekends) anyway talking about it all night isnt going to get my homework done so i guess id better go.