trapped in a soap opera

always the same ol shit here

well not much going on right now, have yet another physical science test tomorrow. it sucks--i basically understand chemistry a whole lot more than i do physics and it makes sense in class, but then when he gave us the practice test i couldnt do any of it. were balancing like freakin graduate level equations. oh well got to study tonight. went to lab today got to burn peanuts--it was fun and easy but it stunk like hell.

on to my exciting life--ive managed to get myself in yet another potentially weird situation. been hanging out with this guy brad a bit--nto really any attraction but he does give great massages and he makes me laugh. overall though hes a little too straight for me--not as in straight/gay but as in he rarely drinks, and watches the history channel.. kinda like hes 25 but hasnt been through much of life yet--a little awkward and naive still. so anyway i went with him the other day to his friend gregs house... i dont remember if i mentioned it or not in here but anyway...greg is a lot cuter--something about his face just isnt quite right--but overall he has a nice body, and is good looking. anyway so we went over there talked for a while blah blah blah. well greg ended up kicking me out at 4am--brad says it was because he couldnt sleep, but i said something to greg when i ran into him the other day, and he said that there were other reasons..something about beign a big brother to brad and theres things going on that i dont know about. he wouldnt tell me, but i think eventually he will--once he gets to know me.
anyway the other day when i ran into him we talked he said i was cool and we should hang out and bullshit sometime. gave me his number. well i got bored yesterday and called him--he was in memphis gettin an MRI on his knee....but asked what i was doing fri night. well of course its my weekend here so im not doing anything. so apparently were going to hang out try to figure out something to do while bulshitting and drinking beer. i think i can probably convince him to tell me whats going on then.

but heres the situation. even though ive adamantly expressed around both of them that im not interested in dating or having sex with anyone, guys tend to hear what they want so.....
im not sure what brad thinks is going on between us, not sure what greg thinks about fri night (whether or not its a date/what hes getting out of it--hey we are pretty much alone and drinking which tends to be a dangerous combination), add the fact that brad practically lives at gregs house so theres a great possibility that hell come over while were sitting there alone drinking--and since i dont knwo what he thinks is going on between us, i dont know what hell think about that situation. so it could get really complicated....
oh well at least im getting to spend some time with ppl my own age (brad is 25, greg is 30) tired of these teenyboppers.

well im going to go take a nap i think--got to spend most of the evening after dinner studying for that freaking test tomorrow, and i would like to go to the sigma pi pledge auction (dont have any money but it would be interesting to see who buys who) so laters for now wish me luck this weekend.