trapped in a soap opera

the rest of the story

couldnt write a lot last night cause david was looking over my shoulder. last night was weird i got drunk on southern comfort, which is usually a really bad idea. it usually makes me sick...i kinda started to, but i just quit drinking for a while and it went away. david read some of my poetry, he thought it was good but he was drunk.

nanah finally passed the fuck out so i didnt have to deal with her stupid ass anymore.

I ended up sleeping with Tyler, not in a sexual way we just went to sleep. i dont know about him, i kinda like him sometimes, but other times im not so sure. add to that hes a really nice guy and a virgin, so way above me in my mind. not that i think hes too good for me but i cant have normal relationships and im not going to drag him into all that. becca wants me to deflower him LOL she says she lives vicariously through me which is really stupid since ive only had sex once in the last 4 months. she keeps egging me on, but thats not who or how i am anymore i think about this shit now. yeah i could still do it but i really dont want to. anyway i guess thats it for now.