trapped in a soap opera

life sucks

that pretty much sums it up--yeah shithas happened but i just havent felt like doing much of anything let alone writing. perk is back for the week but its turning out to be a disaster--same ol bullshit--part of me just wants to tell him to fuck off. there was a party tonight in his honor but apparently i wasnt invited. for someone who swears how much i mean to him you never could tell. anyway im just getting more pissed so im gonna go--i need some alcohol