trapped in a soap opera

oops i did it again ;)

well sort of anyway. background story--there is a guy at the frat i used to hang out with that i have really liked for a while--hes cute nice etc. well went out to said frat for the first time this semester--ended up playing strip pool with him and another guy. we were both fairly drunk (though i wasnt drunk enough not to remember) dont know how we ended up in his room--i think we were getting another drink--he turned his computer music on and it was "only god knows why" which just happens to be one of my favorite songs to lapdance to. so i did. one thing led to another sort of--i was so pissed cause it was a bad week for that (if ya catch my drift) so we only ended up messing around (kissing and i gave him a bj) like i said though i was really pissed cause i didnt get to do anything else and i have wanted to since i met him--oh well shit happens i guess who knows if anything will ever again transpire or if he even remembers that it happened. well i need to go to bed its 230 and i at least need to try. ive slept all day already (didnt feel that good) so i dont know how it will go though.
later