trapped in a soap opera

what the hell am i going to do

yeah im messed up
i kissed adam tonight (the one who lives here not in ohio) he took me home. I really do like him and i told him that but i also told him that i dont want to just fuck aroudn with ppl. im tired of that--he said thats ok just take it slow. i did kiss him tonight though--hes not too bad of a kisser--allan and jeff gave him hell though (my self appointed bodyguards LOL) but he took it. i hate this shit cause i really do like him, cut im afraid i come off as a ho. im really not. i dont know what the hell is going on. although i know it could get fucked up cause he works with roy and is friends with timmy. hwo weird can that get?
anyway im going ot bed later