trapped in a soap opera

looking up maybe

well things have gotten a little better since yesterday. when tymm took me to work i explained how i felt. He told me that he feels the same way but that he cant let it get to him and sit around and be depressed all the time because there are bills to be paid. it made me feel better knowing that he does miss and love me and it hurts him just as much to be apart--and to understand that just because he doesnt seem to show it that hes just dealing with it in his own way.

we are supposed to spend some time together tonight at my house (minus all the crack heads that hang out at curts), though we did already get the sex out of the way LOL so who knows i may go over there or something. hopefully the rest of the day goes ok too