trapped in a soap opera

made an ass of myself

yeah thats pretty much what i did last night. i got drunk while talking to Arthur (my ex husband)and wnet on this big emotional crying jag. Of course being drunk--i blew things way out of proportion...I still wonder sometimes if I did the right thing by leaving--even though i know it was the right thing at the time. if maybe i had what i wanted but wasnt ready for it. we were both at weird points in our lives when we met...and im sure the financial and family situations didnt help things (his family hated me). Oh well im talking to him on messenger after over 2 years. its kinda weird. dont see anything coming out of it but who the hell knows--anyone who reads this regularly knows that weirder things have happened to me.