Sarah's Life

Friends...

I have this friend, and he knows who he is.... But he's always saying publicly how sick he is of having me around, and then turning around and giving me the links to the journals which say this.

Fuck off man, if you are so fucking sick of me, why do you keep emailing me this shit? I was perfectly content to let you happily drift out of my life like you've been trying to do for the past few years. Sorry if I kept taking you out to eat when I can't afford it simply because I know you can't afford it even more. Sorry if I took you out to movies and such for the exact same reason. Sorry if I was trying to keep a friendship going with you because all I ever see from you is bitching and moaning about how no one cares. FUCK YOU.

You've been my friend longer than anyone else and I've done my best to show you exactly how much I still care. And all I ever fucking get in return is your not only bitching about me, but then your sending me the links to your little bitchy rants about me.

So now I'm very much sorry for trying to stay your friend. I'm sorry for giving you my time. I'm sorry for all of those times when I listened to you, or tried to even get you to start talking. I'm sorry for trying to do what I can to help. And most of all, I'm sorry that you blame me for not being able to help when the real reason I was never able to give you anything was because you never gave me anything to work with.

I know now that I never really knew you. and that doesn't make me the least bit sad. Enjoy your life, and if you ever actually want to BE a friend in return, you know how to reach me. I'm sick of one-sided friendships.

~~Sarah