Life as I see it.

Loosing hope.....

I just got back from Indonesia, I feel terrible. I got back wednesday morning, at like 1 o'clock, and I didnt sleep till 2 in the morning, and then I woke up at about 6 to get ready to school. I missed two weeks of school, and its horrible. I have been crying ever since I got back, because I am way over stress. I just want to quit everything! I want to go back home to Indonesia and stay with my grandma. I keep telling myself that everytthing is going to be okay, and that school will be fine, that I will catch up. But there is just so much to be done, and all the quizes and test and lessons that I have to make up....stresses me out even more! Ever time I tell myself that things will be okay, the next minute I start crying, and loose hope! I am so tired, because I couldnt sleep at all last night. Good thing I dont have school today, because its snowing, but I only went to school one day this week, because on thursday I had an awful headache and I threw up twice. Hopefully by Monday I will feel better, because I cant afford to miss any more school days.