My thoughts, emotions, frustrations. In short, my life such as it is. |
After surviving a massive heart attack that the doctors agreed he should not have survived my father now a tumor in his lung bigger than a grapefruit. Ironic as hell, huh? He sees a pulmonologist Monday then his cardiologist, if the pulmonolgist says he can survive with one lung, for a stress test to see if he can survive the surgery to remove it. If all goes well he will have surgery in the next week. It's going to be another Christmas like the one the year before last when he was recovering from the heart attack. But that's fine. My present will be him surviving and hopefully getting well. I pray this cancer has not spread is operable with a decent cure rate. Some are not. If it isn't operable then chemo and radiation are the only other options. I'm not sure his heart could take the stress of that. I will keep a positive attitude since he is an extremely stubborn man. That was why he survived a heart attack he shouldn't have. He is a fighter and for that I'm extremely grateful. Heavenly Father, Give my family the strength to weather this challenge and my father the strength to fight this devil's disease. If it's Your will to have him then so be it but please don't let him suffer. Take him quickly and quietly and You will have a good man by Your side. Whatever is Your will, I will accept. Amen. |