Chaotic Meanderings

September 2007

September 11, 2007
While checking out new features, since I've returned from absent-mindlessness, I set this Journal as a Blog. Testing it, to see if I like it.... but from the dates of previous entries, you can surely see I'm not much of a Blogger!
At least you will know that I'm still alive after this entry.

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September 12, 2007
As I look over WDC Blog options and compare them to the Book options, I decided to Edit the previous enties. I will post them by Month/Year, saving a little space. This is done in the hope that I will return often, leaving new words for other's to read, learning more of who I am... what makes me tick.

This evening is really warm, muggy which makes it hard to get comfortable and sleep. I live, with my mother, youngest brother (thirty-something), and kids in an old farm house. This house does not have AC of anykind. We do have some window fans, but sometimes it just isn't enough. Maybe it isn't really warm, but I'm having hot flashes.

Along with the heat, I deal with untreated depression (mild to medium, depending on the day). Because of this depression, I scared my muse away. Well, that is what I try to convence myself, but I really know she is always with me. I'm the one ignoring her but she loves me anyway.

In an attempt to treat myself, I've decided to really do something. This stagnate stage of my life is very tiresome. So, I've joined a new Group...

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I hope to learn something new, and find my enjoyment in writing again. My muses' been sad for a long time. I'm the only one that can make a change.

I miss being active with WDC but thankful that this home away from home is always here, waiting on me to return. "There's no place like home."

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September 19, 2007
I can't sleep. I've laid there, trying to relax, making myself close my eyes, mind a jumble of thoughts, and my eyes keep popping open. It's dark, kids are sleeping, but not me. I came here, to see what was happening... caught up on a few things, read a bit in different portfolio's and now writing out my own thoughts, feelings. Maybe if I write them out, it will release my jumbled brain cell from it's torture and let my body get needed rest.

I heard from a friend today, who's three year old grandaughter is ill. I send my thoughts and prayers, but still wish there was something I could do to help. It is difficult to find the right words to say to someone who is emotionaly sad, hurting, helpless... when a loved one is sick. This little girl's been through so much in her short life, but I do know, she is loved deeply and she's brightened her world.

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September 24, 2007
Update on the previous entry...
Faith, the sick, three year old grandaughter of a friend, isn't sick any more. At 7:10pm today, she left her earthly body. Her family was with her at the time and said she went peacefully, for which they are thankful.

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September 28, 2007
My head is buzzin', my eyes are blurry, for I've read till I can read no more.
Today, I reviewed over 30 items... well, sent reviews to that many, but I read more. I didn't review everything I read. My goal was 60. I didn't make it, but will sleep now and try to finish tomorrow. Right now, I am not even thinking... this BeeBrain is done for and going now to curl up in her honeycomb.

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September 29, 2007
Again, my head is buzzin, but I did complete my goal. I didn't know that I would recieve so many emails with GP's for reviewing author's I never reviewed before. I think that I will give "The Writing.Com Gift System" a break since my goal was reached and my head is spinning. I think I will give myself a break tomorrow, and rest, be ready for class to start on Monday. I did have a great time visiting my classmate's portfolio's and look forward to visiting them again. If I do anything here tomorrow, it will be catching up on replies to the member's who reviewed something from my portfolio. I'm asleep now.