Guide to Atonement

Chapter 1

    As a child I was taught that if you get sick it is because you did something wrong. I was not taken to the doctor like most but forced to look into myself and strive to be the best child of God that I could possibly be. In my quest to surpass sickness and tragedy I knew that the only way to be the best that I could be was to educate myself by studying the Word of God and to train myself in the admonition of the Lord.


    At the age of nine I started my biblical studies on how to be the best child of God that I could be. I have found that in order to receive God's blessings, His healing, His peace; we must believe that we are worthy of His love and we must believe in Him like we believe that every morning the sun comes up and every night there are a moon and stars. When you learn to believe in God whom you can not see then you will receive healing and blessings in every aspect of your life that you can see.





Matthew 9:28,29 And when He was come into the house, the blind men came to Him: And Jesus saith unto them, Believe ye that I am able to do this? They said unto Him, Yea, Lord. Then touched he their eyes, saying, According to your faith be it unto you.





    When I was nineteen years old I worked at a doctor's office part-time and went to college full-time. It is against my nature to lay out of work. I went to work sick one day. My coworkers and the office manager noticed that I could not hear them if my back was turned and I staggered and stumbled when I walked. The office manager asked me what was wrong. I told her that I had a terrible ear ache and it was messing up my equilibrium. She asked one of the doctor's to examine my ear. One of them did. he said that I had the worst ear infection that he had ever seen and that I would probably develop scar tissue from it. He had the office manager take me immediately to see an ear specialist sixty-two miles away. On the way there we prayed for my ear and sang praises to God. When I saw the ear specialist he said that I didn't have an ear infection and that there wasn't any sign of me ever having an ear infection. I was healed.


    Not only does God want for us to pray and to believe, He also wants for us to pray with supplication and thanksgiving. What better way is there to show faith in God and His healing and blessings then to pray with thanksgiving. We should sing praises unto God and show our gratitude.





Philippians 4:6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your request be made known unto God.





We must have faith like we believe that when we inhale there will be air for us to breath.





Matthew 9:20-22 And, behold, a woman, which was diseased with an issue of blood twelve years, came behind Him and touched the hem of His garment. For she said within herself, if I may but touch His garment, I shall be whole. But Jesus turned Him about, and when He saw her, He said, daughter, be of good comfort; thy faith hath made thee whole.And the woman was made whole from that hour.





    In 1994 I was diagnosed with endometriosis by two different gynecologists in two different towns. Both of them said that I needed to have a hysterectomy, I was twenty-four years old. I had two sons. I wanted to have a daughter. I asked my preacher and his wife to anoint me with oil and pray with me for my healing. I was healed. I had a daughter when I was twenty-five.





James 5:14,15 Is any sick among you? Let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord: And the prayer of Faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.





    When I was sixteen years old I was vaginally and anally raped. I have told this to only three people until now. I told no one when it happened because my daddy being the man he was would have said that it was some how my fault. My faith in God kept me going but I had to forgive my assailant to be healed. Being such a horrific tragedy for me I had seizures for a year both in my sleep and when I was awake. When I had seizures in my sleep I would wake up paralyzed and unable to speak. I would feel only a stabbing pain in my right side. When I had seizures when I was awake I would slip into total darkness and lose consciousness and then my body would stiffen like a board until I regained consciousness.


    The last time that I had a seizure I was at my preachers house. I felt the seizure coming on and I went outside to be alone. I didn't want to frighten anyone and I would have been embarrassed. There were a lot of people there. My preachers son sensed that there was something wrong with me and followed me outside. He took my stiff body into his home and laid me on the couch. The preacher and other members of the church who were there anointed me with oil and prayed for me. As I regained consciousness I could hear them praying and feel there loving hands on my head,arms and legs. As I write this to you tears stream down my face both for the tragedy itself and for the love and prayers and faith and power that healed me. That was the last time that I had a seizure of any kind.





Mark11:24,25 Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them. And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have aught against any; that your Father also which is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.





God's word is so plain. God's love is so magnificent. He is our heavenly Father. Our spiritual daddy. He is always there for us if we just let Him. Where there are two or three gathered in His name there He will be in the midst.





Matthew 18:19,20 Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching anything that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven for where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.





    Praise God. Through the blood and the stripes of our Lord and Savior Christ Jesus we are healed. I often think of a song of praise that I learned when I was a child. 'We've got a great, big, wonderful God. We've got a great, big wonderful God.A God who is always victorious. Does so much for all of us. A great, big, wonderful God. We've got a great, big wonderful God. We've got a great, big wonderful God. A God who loves every one of us. Watches over all of us. A great, big, wonderful God.'