The Journal of Someone who Squandered away Years but wishes to redeem them in the present |
Yesterday was a downer. I think mainly just because Labor Day marks the end of summer, and I live for summer. Ultimately I may need to live somewhere more tropical (?). Texas or the south somewhere? Arizona? I don't know, but what I do know is that I love riding my bike, and I love warm weather. Fall is nice, but winter has got to go. And spring is something I can't say I've really figured out yet. I'm doing better today than yesterday. Yesterday began with Laura heading off to Boston for two days. I don't mind being alone at all, mind you, but still, I would have been more comforted if she had been here. I think it started south because I didn't sleep very well. It got COLD all the sudden on Monday night. Dropped to the mid 40s overnight, and we had left most of the windows upstairs open, so I slept cold and shitty. Not very restful. Then I heard the eulogy for Bob Schimmel on Stern on my drive down, and I think that set me down a macabre road. Then this workplace sucks, and that was sort of it for me. It didn't get better until I got home and hung out with Ally. Once I was home, smoked a bit, I felt better. Still, I was bored, and worried about some stuff (that I don't want to write about today). And I just felt a bit bored. It was an okay night though. I'd have been happier to be completely alone, but hey, that was part of the thing I knew I was giving up when we agreed to invite Ally to stay with us for a bit. It's okay. She's quiet company, which is nice. not much to say otherwise. Just wanted to get a journal entry in this week. Things are going better, and that's when I tend to fade off on follow-through. It is never too late to be what you might have been. -- George Eliot Courage to start and willingness to keep everlasting at it are the requisites for success. -- Alonzo Newton Benn |