Dreamscapes

Caught

I had a dream that spoke very loudly to me. I am in a place where there is all kinds of money at a Christmas situation. The first frame of the dream sees a bunch of packages. There is joy in knowing that the packages will be open and I will get what I want.
As it turns out after all the items have been dealt out, I find out I am given only one gift and feel somehow cheated. I recall all the times that I had lots of gifts when I was younger(this really did happen in my extended family). I come to the realization that mom saw that it did not help us do any better in life-it did not help. It was as if we were entitled and therefore things had to change.

Shortly after this I am at my grandparents and there is a drawer of money from a cash register. I see the money and take some of it, hoping no one is looking. I take about 160 dollars and think they will not miss it. I am convicted and I confide in my brother Kurt who lets me know that I have to make right. There is drama as I find the courage to tell my dad and may grandparents come in the door. I have them sit down and I confess. They are taken aback and I get ready to give them back the money and more. My grandmother says that it is no more than two hundred dollars. The dream ends.
Interpretation:
As I look back I recall a time when my church van hit another car. I had a bunch of kids in the van and it was not convenient to stop. The car looked old and beat up, even before I hit it. It was by the side of the road. Anyway it hurt not to do anything about it. The owner of the car died in a freak killing. I left unsure of myself. God has left me to go on in life being more careful. At times it is very difficult to forgive. My dream opened up the hurt and let me know that I can let go. My sermon shares about how Jesus confronts the Pharisees in Mark chapter 4. I saw this scripture in a deeper light as Jesus confronts them to help and they can only think of killing him