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Whittling Away Time

There are so many things to do in a day. I'm home every day this summer. You'd think without going to work, my house would be sparkling, and many stories would be written by now. I've turned to yard work, house cleaning, and surfing the Internet. I'm becoming an expert at trivia nobody cares about. I'm afraid to spend money while I'm not bringing in new income. But I am still maintaining my bills, and doing the medical stuff.

Meanwhile my closets are clean. Good Will has a lot of clothes and accessories. Some old pictures have been framed. My house probably is a little neater on a regular basis than before. I still wonder how did I get by when I was dressing up to leave, waiting for buses, and whiling my days away in an office where I was unappreciated and unfulfilled. I have more time, but don't see much more accomplishment. I do feel good, though. I don't get up with an alarm. I stay up until I'm tired. I sit outdoors occasionally. I play with my flower pots. I meditate. I exercise more.

We should all reach the point where we can take some time off, catch up, and enjoy life without pressure. You have to work at keeping your self esteem intact, since so many of us are caught up in our working lives and find validation there. I have to keep telling myself, it's okay to take time off. I've worked two jobs at once most of my life. It's time to slow down and smell the roses.